the wild blue yonder

i find that i have more free time these days. this means more blog entries(maybe...). im not exactly sure how to feel about it at this point. i feel like im in a daze or a dream and that any moment ill wake up and things will be back to normal. but i know they wont and i guess im going accept that. they say that you can do anything you want in a dream if you concentrate hard enough. so maybe ill just pretend this life is a dream and do what ever the hell i want and not let anyone get me down about the goals i have or the things i want to accomplish. i guess the only one that is holding me back is me. and my brain is a giant bully that doenst like change.

school

while im not extremely excited to go to school most of the time, i find myself enjoying it much more than i used to. perhaps because i am doing something that interests me, but i also think that having the general monotony of school is sitting well also. having a set schedule makes me feel a lot better. getting up at 6:30 am every day is a pain but generally, if i have eaten breakfast, the day passes fast and i usually learn or accomplish something every day. so its nice to feel useful, if only to myself.

wood

working with wood is really cool. not only do i feel super handy when ever i do something, but the wood just feels good. and its so beautiful too. its soft in some places, rough in others and when you put some lacker on it, it gives it the most beautiful finish. it really makes me excited to go to class everyday. though the thing that kicks my butt every time is figuring out the math that go along with writing up the plans. i am very greatfull for patiant teachers that take the time to sit down and help me figure all of it out. wood workers are less intimidating than other shop teachers as well.

anyway...off to bed!

i havent posted in a good long while

so i realize that i havent posted in about a year. thats a long time especially for blogging. but i have started school and have little time for other creative outlets so here i am.

school has been interesting to say the least. i still dont know if its the right thing for me but im giving it another try just to see how it goes. i think i will be better this time because ive had time to grow up a little since the last time i tried but that still doesnt make it any easer for me. im learning how to build cabinets and other various wood crafts, and its interesting but i think ive waited a little too long since my last wood working job to be very interested in my class. i guess what all this blabbering means is that i have mixed feelings about it. im excited to learn some neat stuff but at the same time i have the hardest time learning anything in a class room setting. but im going to try my hardest this semester and see how it goes. if not well then its an excuse to ride my skateboard and try to play guitar or drums for the rest of my life. but i will give it an honest go! i guess thats all that can be expected.