take me home country roads

i just got an e-mail that was inviting me to go to a surprise birthday party for my best friend che. i just kinda made me miss home a lot. sometimes i see pictures and read comments and things about whats going on back home and i really wish i was there. i wish i could pack up and go back and play music and all that but, something in the back of my mind keeps telling me "you know better nick, you need to stay in utah." it just drives me up the wall knowing that i cant be there to help out my best buddy or be there for one of the moste epich shows thats comming up or any of that. i kinda just feel like im spinning my wheels here but at the same time i know if i go back to tucson it definatly wouldnt be the best thing for me...ugh! im just upset right now that i cant be at che's party. ill be over it soon enough.

gay guys

tonight while doing my nightly ritual of fiddling around on facebook, i came across a status update that said "i got hit on by a gay guy today." i got somewhat upset by that because i know a lot of gay people and they are totally cool people. so chace( i will use your name because i know you will never ever read my blog) i will tell you exactly why that gay guy hit on you. he hit on you because he thought you were gay! out of all the straight guys i know, you are one of the moste femmenine guys i know! maybe if you would put a little less thougtht into what you wair and how your hair looks, then you wouldnt have that problem. gay guys wont hit on you if they dont suspect anything.

media

so today i went and saw the movie coroline(dont know how its spelled) with a good friend of mine. the movie was a kind of creepy tale about a girl that goes into another world that looks just like her own only where everyones eyes should have been there were coat buttons insted. though the movie was kind of creepy it didnt scare me really at all. though my friend jumped and even screamed out loud in some parts. so my question is have i really been desenceitized enought to think that the movie was not really that bad? i know it was only rated PG but still...i wouldnt take my child to see that. but o well...what do i know...do what ever the hell you want...your life your rules.

mothers day

is it weird that i have no sort of attachment to mothers day? i mean i realize that i didnt grow up with a mom in the house but usually most kids still do something. for me its just been like any other sunday except they would make us give out flowers to all the woman in the ward. as a joke once i gave my dad one of the flowers because through out my live he has tried to play both roles. but ya...do other people celebrate mothers day even though they dont really have much attachment to their mother? i did take my aunt linda(who is the coolest aunt in the world) out for lunch on friday and i finished digging her ditch for her. so i guess you could count that as a mothers day/birthday present.

its weird because i feel more attachment to my aunt then my mom. i mean i loved my mom to bits when i saw her but she didnt really do anything for my sister and i when we were growing up. we would also go on vacation a lot and visit linda so i think that because we saw her more often then there was more attachment there...i dunno...its all good. happy mothersday to all you mothers out in internet land.

hrm

im feeling pretty good right now. i have had 3 good meals today and i had a bit of social interaction as well. i get to finish digging a ditch for my aunt linda tomarrow and its also her birthday. so that should be a good time.

im loving the spring weather up here in utah. i feel like i shoud be outside all the time. i cant wait to ride the river trail and see what thats all about! maybe ill do that sometime tomarrow since i wont have a whole lot to do after i finish the work and all that. i think i will. it will be my goal to do it. i think i need to get back into shape this summer too. it makes me feel better when i eat well and am in sort of shape.

so....

blogging...ya this i cool i guess....i feel as though i need some sort of release aside from skateboarding and playing music so i figured i try my hand at writing. so...ya.

so i think i figured out why i sometimes have a great time at social gatherings and why sometimes i just want to kill my self(figuratively speaking of course) while there. i think it all has to do with how much i eat. i am a very scrawny fellow after all and i tend to go through food like no ones business, but the problem is that i dont really like eating and i get really bored of food extreemly fast. so then i dont eat and i get cranky. whats a growing boy supposed to do? i guess i should find someone that really likes to eat and hang out with them all the time. that way i never go hungry and there will always be something interesting to eat. eve seems to help me with that. she took me to this sushi place and showed me all sorts of stuff(i had never been before) and i really liked it. but the thing is that its so damn expensive. frik...o well. i guess ill figure something out.