the wild blue yonder

i find that i have more free time these days. this means more blog entries(maybe...). im not exactly sure how to feel about it at this point. i feel like im in a daze or a dream and that any moment ill wake up and things will be back to normal. but i know they wont and i guess im going accept that. they say that you can do anything you want in a dream if you concentrate hard enough. so maybe ill just pretend this life is a dream and do what ever the hell i want and not let anyone get me down about the goals i have or the things i want to accomplish. i guess the only one that is holding me back is me. and my brain is a giant bully that doenst like change.